Icky I hate being sick..

So, here I am. Sick. Day number 3. Luckily its not pukey sick but head cold, which may be equally worse (if not just as bad). So im going to apologize if this doesnt make sense haha my sentences and thoughts tend to run together when my head is stuffed up.

I'm at home. :-) And Its nice to be back. But as I was driving I got to thinking (as I usually do, gotta pass the 2.5 hours some how!) Any ways, I got to thinking about how torn I feel at times. It seems like when i'm at school I always crack jokes about being from a small town and talk about how im glad to be out of there, etc but I always love coming home. Its like no matter how much I cant wait to leave (marionville) there comes a time when I cant wait to come back. I guess its one of those things, Im struggling with. Figuring out what I want in life and what God has in store.

I feel like Im caught in two different worlds and I have to choose.The only problem is, I feel like sometimes Im the only one in the middle, that there arent any people right there in the middle with me, someone who knows about me and where i come from and also where i'm going. Dont get me wrong, I know there are wonderful people on both sides who know me and care for me I guess thats something I have to deal with. I knew that was a consequence of going to school where no one knew me.

Anyways enough about that, now on to something else. I have been thinking about my schedule lately, and how busy i always seem to be...But God never fails to remind me to stop and take a breath and enjoy the beauties he has made. As I got out of my car tonight for some reason I looked up at the sky. Now I live in the country so there arent any city lights, so you can imagine what i saw. Yup,thats right. Nothing but a beautiful night sky filled with a sea of stars. Which got me thinking, the last time I remember stopping and just enjoying such a simple beauty was this past summer at baptist hill when i would lay on the concrete tables outside and just stare at the sky for hours. Something about doing that is absolutly amazing. Even the thought of it is just so relaxing and nice. So if you ever get a chance, i definatly recommend taking some time out of (what im sure is) your busy schedule to stop and smell the wild flowers, watch the sun rise(or set), lay beneath the stars, anything that is so simple to do that we dont even think twice about.

I know I definatly will remember that God created all of these things just for us to enjoy :-) How great is He?