Balancing Friendships

So, I know I said once a week...I'm trying :-)

Ok so, Im really excited about hanging out with the freshmen girls, and getting to know them!
This past week I had coffee with a girl I met last semester but never really talked to, and she spilt her life story without me asking anything...it was cool. She said "I dont know why but I felt like I should tell you...." And now, everytime we see eachother, shes like "Hey best friend" :-) I love it.

But I guess I keep thinking about my other friendships. I have made SO many wonderful truly genuine friends. Not only here in Warrensburg but also the ones from back home.

But how can I keep those balanced with the relationships I want to build with the freshmen girls? Like every relationship, we have to invest time and effort into them. So why do I feel like I have to pick a select few. Every one of them offers something different, something I click with.

I dont know I guess I feel like I'm bored with some of them but I dont want to "break up" with them so to say. I feel like I go through friends like most girls go through boys. Once I get bored I want to toss them...(except I can't because I dont want to...)

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH.........................

I dont know what to do...any advice?

Hello 2009

First off,
I just want to thank you for checking out my blog. You will have to hang in there, I forget to update this, so just keep checking back and hopefully I will get around to updating at least once a week (maybe twice a month is a little more like it :-) hehe)

So lets see, where to start...
Over break, a lot happened, within a 3 day span, my suitemate last year and neighbor this year was in a fatal car wreck and 2 days later a girl from high school (who was a year younger then me) was also in a fatal car wreck. I found myself not really wanting to deal with it but eventually had to. Only felt torn, I felt like no one understood what was going on, when I knew there were a million people I could call and they would drop everything so we could chat.But I didnt. It was really hard, but I sorted things out with God, and realized all these things were happening for a reason (and it sounds so cheesy and I always hear it but I felt it.) I dont want any sympathy, because I wasnt really close with either of the girls, but I learned something from each of them. I will never forget what was told to me by one of the girls' moms. She said, "She looked up to you. She really did. Never loose that Godly woman character of yours." Yeah, I cried...whats new haha.

Anyways, this semester I am applying for a semester missionary position. Which is basically a fancy name for what I already do. Hanging out with others, having a ministry,etc. Last semester I sort of started this idea of a womens ministry. I really didnt want it to look a certain way, other then encouraging other women of the BSU to step up and start that leadership. I have learned recently that it doesnt matter our age, we can be an influence to any women of any age, both younger and older, even if we know it or not. I am really excited to see the work God is doing in this field, I recently learned that there are a few girls who are steping up and talking about doing a girls night/informal bible study sort of thing. I can't wait to see what God does with that and the authentic community that gets built.

I on the other hand am co-leading a Sunday night freshmen girls bible study. I pray every night that I am able to connect to the girls. Looking back at last semester I realize I didnt exactly do what I was excited about doing. So this semester I know that will be different. :-)

Well, thats about all I have.......

Thank you so much for stopping by and reading about my life...I promise to try and keep this updated with any thoughts that pop into my head....